i am really really sad. i have to tell you. i just thought there was no way the gay marriage ban would pass. i just absolutley can not believe that people who live on this planet together can be so hatefull and horrible to each other. i actually cried. i know im lame but this stuff really makes me loose faith in humanity. can someone tell me how this could happen. would someone who voted for this please resopond and tell me why you voted for it. you can even PM me if you want. i wont get mad at you i promise. i just want to know if there is a reason beside "i dont like gay people" or "the bible says gays are bad".

i normally have blinders on to the terrible things people do around the world. i cant even watch the news. i can not spend any amount of time pondering what is occouring in other countries. i have to tell myself people are all basicly good on the inside maybe they just dont know any better. maybe that guy sitting down while some old lady wth a cane stands was never taught to give up his seat. he cant really be THAT selfish and self absorbed. and maybe people really think its better to keep a dog in their posession, even if its starving while being chained to a tree in their back yard, than sending it to the pound where it might get put down. and maybe tomorrow people waring all over the world will realise that there really can be a peacefull resolutin to their problems and every one will set down their guns. i cant look at al this stuff and not want to crawl into bed and die because i am just one small tiny insignificant speck in the world and what can i do about it? politicians and government are corrupt, religion has been twisted to hate, and the world frankly is a bleak place. so i spend a good portion of my life in denial and am in the dark about alot of stuff on purpose because i quite litterally can not deal with or process the cruelty in the world.

and i really really thought that for once people would do the right and loving thing for other people. how can more love and more commitment be bad for anyone? would the same people who didnt want gay people to get married say black people and white people cant date? would they say handicapped people and non handicapped people cant get married? and not only that but this isnt a few religious nutbags! this is a MAJORITY of the people that voted. that means a higher percentage of people in this world hate and are cruel to each other than are loving and kind to each other. this is hard proof that no mattter what i tell myself about most people inthe world being good kind people, i am wrong. a majority of people are haters.

im gonna go crawl in a hole and die now.